MyDiary

       I haven't exactly had the best luck with men throughout my life. I have always read the wrong signals from guy friends and had one-sided crushes that everyone else seemed to see except myself, but I have always been an optimist-believing that everything happens for a reason. You learn from your mistakes, and this view of things is what has saved me from having a nervous breakdown.


       Until recently, my love life has never been so animated. And, while I love the attention I get from various men, I can't help but only think about a certain man. This man I have known for many years now. For privacy reasons, I'm going to call him Mr. Connection.


          I have a very interesting relationship with Mr. Connection. We don't always see eye-to-eye on every situation. I say black, and he says white. I say Superman, he would say Batman. But if you put the arguing aside, Mr. Connection has always been a great friend to me, especially during a lot of very hard times. We've always had a weird connection with each other since the moment we met. And, I don't mean a "love at first sight" connection. I mean a "I totally understand you" connection. I can really be me with him, flaws and all. And, as I get older and our friendship grows stronger, I realize that I might be feeling something for him. Though, Mr. Connection has a woman in his life, and I'm not in the business for breaking up a relationship. So I try my hardest to fight all the urges I have to tell him how I feel, and I continue on as his friend.


         This is MyDiary of my trials and tribulations with Mr. Connection.


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